Thursday, August 27, 2009

Summer Break

Now is the time in which I open up and share my deepest thoughts...happy thoughts....with those whom I cherish.

Alas, I cannot. I cannot open up and spew my words across the page, as if I did it would cause such a violent wave of emotional disfigurement that it would render my person unrecognizable. Those of you who know me would only see the fleshy rotteness I am able to keep covered...I shall refrain, only exposing it to the one whom I know will heal it and mend it and make it new again.

If you were able to see the things of which I allude to, you would gasp at the putrid stench of carnal remains that hold hostage my pain and sorrow and grief.

The hunger that is growing in me is not for the living water...but for revenge and disaster on those who cause this havoc to be reaped.

As my husband reads to me, I realized that it is there in the words of David...hope for my anger...for the pain...for the torment of a heart broken and bleeding...

Be gracious to me, O God, for man has trampled upon me;
Fighting all day long he oppresses me.
My foes have trampled upon me all day long,
For they are many who fight proudly against me.
When I am afraid,
I will put my trust in You.
In God, whose word I praise,
In God I have put my trust;
I shall not be afraid.
What can mere man do to me?
All day long they distort my words;
All their thoughts are against me for evil.
They attack, they lurk,
They watch my steps,
As they have waited to take my life.
Because of wickedness, cast them forth,
In anger put down the people, O God!

You have taken account of my wanderings'
Put my tears in Your bottle.
Are they not in Your book?
Then my enemies will turn back in the day when I call'
This I know, that God is for me.
In God, whose word I praise,
In the Lord, whose word I praise,
In God I have put my trust, I shatll not be afraid.
What can man do to me?
Your vows are binging upon me, O God'
I will render thank offerings to You.
For You have delivered my soul from death.
Indeed my feet from stumbling,
So that I may walk before God
In the light of the living.
Psalm 56

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